Progress

Two steps forward, one step back. That's how it feels like things have been going for me lately. I've been doing really well with sticking to my "diet", but I've been craving sweets hardcore and having a hard time not giving in, which also means I haven't been buying Halloween candy. :) Work has been weird lately, too, although I think that's more because of somebody that's feeling a little beat down trying to suck others in so they'll be on their side if/when the shit hits the fan. The manager at my old job has been asking me about coming back for the holidays and, although the money would be kinda nice, I don't know if I want to be working all the time through another holiday season. I guess the bottom line is that although things aren't going great, they sure could be going a lot worse.

The weird part is that, although things are ok, I've been feeling kinda tired and run down. I think that's really the reason I'm looking at the stuff that's been going on in a negative light. I barely see or talk to my friends, I barely make it to the gym, and I don't even really get anything done at home either. I think, o, I'm kinda tired, maybe I'll take a little nap...and then I proceed to sleep for five hours, even if I set an alarm for an hour or so after I lay down. And I still sleep seven hours or more at night (or day on the weekends, since I work overnights then). I don't even feel sick. Just....tired. :/ Maybe it's just the weather changing....I hate fall.

can't sleep, clowns will eat me

ok, i don't really think clowns will eat me, but i really can't sleep. and then other times, i can't wake up. gah! i keep sleeping just a couple hours at a time, then being up for way longer than one should be able to function on just two or three hours of sleep...and then i eventually crash and sleep for like 16 hours straight. i'm not trying to do this at all...the only times i force myself to stay awake are the nights that i work. outside of that, i get involved in doing something, my brain gets going, and then i can't turn it off. which is why i'm going to go to the gym at 4:30 in the morning today (when they open)....if i don't, i'm probably going to be too out of it to get there today, since they close at 9 pm. *sigh* i fail.

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